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[04 Dec 2002|03:18pm] |
tomorrow is my 18th birthday.... yippie...
got my license
got my car
got my man
got all i need.
life is good and i am happy. i just got back from my family va-ca in california which was actually really cool.
ohm mani padre hum
*lorac*
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// series one - as usual
-- Name: carol
-- Birthdate: december 5 .84 yeah im almost legal
-- Birthplace: tarzana, ca
-- Current Location: lawrence, ma
-- Righty or Lefty: ambi, i write with my right and draw& paint with my left, sometimes right when that hand gets tired, and i can play pantera on guitar with either so i guess that makes me ambi
-- Zodiac Sign: sagittarius
-- Innie or Outtie: innie to the extreme!
// series two - describe
-- Your heritage: american. yeah it's fookin obvious i'm irish + russian, czech & german.
-- The shoes you wore today: sandals
-- Your hair: i miss my dreads so much, almost chin legnth now & dark dark brown as usual
-- Your eyes: that would be up to your own interpretation
-- Your weakness?: joe, the outdoors
-- Your fears: moose, bears, slipping of somthing high up
-- Your perfect pizza: mushroom from merrimack house!!!!
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: I've decided to leave for the Appalatian Trail next summer and do the John Muir trail in a few years.
// series three - what is
-- Your most overused phrase on aim: and whatnot
-- Your thoughts first waking up: i can tell from the minute i woke up it was gonna be a lonely lonley lonely lonely day... unless joe is next to me and then usually i think about how much i love him
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: hands- must have guitar player hands, mouth- must have sexy white teeth, eyes, well they're the window to the soul...
--Your best physical feature: um...
-- Your greatest fear: gettin eaten on the AT by a bear or moose
-- Your greatest accomplishment: so far, Joe
// series four - you prefer
-- Pepsi or coke: arizona iced tea
-- McDonald's or Burger King: both are FUCKING GROSS!!!
-- Single or group dates: whatever
-- Adidas or nike: FUCK BRANDS
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: both fucking nasty
-- Chocolate or vanilla: cherry
-- Cappuccino or coffee: coffee, iced hazelnut w/milk NO SUGAR
-- Boxers or briefs: on guys? boxers
// series five - do you
-- Smoke: weed, obviously
-- Cuss: fuck no
-- Sing well: define well
-- Take a shower everyday: eh... when i smell i shower
-- Have a crush(es): duh
-- who are they: hmmmm
-- Do you think you've been in love: i am in love
-- Want to go to college: possibly, im not plannin on it right now though
-- Like high school: no
-- Want to get married: yes
-- Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: yes
-- Believe in yourself: eh...
-- Get motion sickness: no
-- Think you're attractive: well now that i lost some weight i'm not so bad i guess
-- Think you're a health freak: in the way that i do not eat fast food, processed cheese, processed meat, meat unless i am starving and there is no alternative, candy almost never, chew sugar gum- NEVER, drink soda almost never, and mostly eat only 100% all natural food... nah i'm not a Freak
-- Get along with your parents: eh...
-- Like thunderstorms: love em
-- Play an instrument: many
// series six - in the past month, did/have you
-- Drank alcohol: yes
-- Smoke(d): yes
-- Done a drug: yes
-- Have Sex: yes
-- Made Out: yes
-- Go on a date: yes
-- Go to the mall?: i work there :(
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: god no, they're not vegetarian!
-- Eaten sushi: no
-- Been on stage: yes
-- Been dumped: no
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: no
-- Been in love: yes
-- Gone skinny dipping: yes
-- Dyed your hair: no
-- Stolen anything: no
// series seven - have you ever
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: um
-- If so, was it mixed company: non of yo bizness
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: hells yeah
-- Been caught "doing something": i don't get caught
-- Been called a tease: no
-- Gotten beaten up: someone did hit me with a chain
-- Shoplifted: fuck no
-- If so, did you get caught:
-- Changed who you were to fit in: no hmm...maybe i should try that
// series eight - the future
-- Age you hope to be married: eh..
Genders and Names of Children: eh..
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding: eh..
-- How do you want to die: with my bong in my hands, exhaling a hit
-- Where you want to go to college: community college somewhere
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: park ranger
-- What country would you most like to visit: AMSTERfuckingDAM, and Canada
// series nine - opposite sex
-- Best eye color? green
-- Best hair color? red
-- Short or long hair?: long, and i love 'locks
-- Best height: taller than me
-- Best weight: whatever
-- Best articles of clothing: stuff that i can steal
-- Best first date location: the woods
-- Best first kiss location: the woods, or somewhere really public in front of ex girlfriend
// series ten - number of
-- Number of girls I have kissed in my life: 69
-- Number of girls you have made out with: 69
-- Number of girlfriends you've had: 69
-- Number of boys I have kissed:
-- Number of boys you have made out with:
-- Number of boyfriends you've had:
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: just about all of 'em
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: about three
-- Number of CDs that I own: alost 100 plus a ton of cassettes
-- Number of piercings: none
-- Number of tattoos: none- yet
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: a few
-- Number of scars on my body: about 4, not counting self-inflicted & emotional
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: nothing
hrmm... so i got my SAT scores back- 1010, 10 pts better than i wanted. i got 430 in math and 580 in verbal. been busy lately & going to cali for 10 days soon... xoxo all,
Carol
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[08 Oct 2002|03:05pm] |
1. What size is your bed? it's a futon/cruton thing... full i believe
2. What do you wear to bed? usually nothing, sometimes i sleep in my clothes if it is cold or i am really tired. joe keeps me warm though when he's here.
3. How many people regularly sleep in your bed? me plus joe, and sometimes my dog wilma.
4. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no
5. If you could wake up next to any famous person who would it be? i would never want to wake up next to anyone besides joe. maybe that kid from photography class... nah
6. What would have happened the night before? with joe- i think you know hehehe... yah i probably passed out around 7ish, but i always wake him up later :)
7. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? 3, depending on their size.
8. Who is the next person you would like to have in your bed with you? no one. just joe.
9. What position do you go to sleep in? on top
10. What position do you wake up in? spoon
11. Have you ever woken up in a really weird position? everyday i do.
12. How many blankets/covers do you have on your bed? 1 fleece with a hole, a big tyedye blankie too.
13. Do you hog the blankets? of course not... yes all the time.
14. Have you ever found your pillows on the other side of the room? nah the farthest they get is the floor.
15. When was the last time you fell out of bed? joe knocked me out a few weeks ago.
16. Do you have any strange bed habits such as sleep talking etc? snoring, drooling, talking, twitching, muscle spasms... it takes a strong man to sleep next to me.
17. Do you snore? i don't think so but joe says i do.
18. Hows about drooling? yeh
19. How many pillows do you have on your bed? 2 big and one regular size.
20. Do you tend to sleep with a fan? a fan of me? joe is a fan of my so yeah.
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[27 Sep 2002|02:40pm] |
lovely rainy day.
there was a pep rally at school today, but luckily i got my mommie to come get me so i could leave before it. mandatory pep rallys suck ass. or so i assume by the word "pep". anyways...
i have my first driving lesson in a little bit and then work. i need my fuckin license NOW! it sucks now that joe can't drive. it's just like the old days, but i can't really take the bus from here to there like i could in amesbury.
we (me and joe) hung out yesterday. good times. i saw Jay yesterday. awkwardness. i feel very weird around him. i don't know what it is i need to say but i probably will never get the chance anyway.
i got a sweet hat today. its a vintage, almost derby style hat from the 50s, but it's not totally round in the back, it's kinda like a fedora from the back, but the shape isn't that pointy.
joe's birthday was good. we went shopping for glasswares. i bought an incredible piece. about 16'' tall- Dave, if you're reading this, you and Robyn need to come down and try it out, my treat.-
well anyways, yah got to go get ready for driving.
~om mani padre hum~
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jest got home from skool on this bloody hot day. going into work in a wee bit. amesbury is turning out to be much cooler than i thought it would be, not literallly though that school is a fucking oven. i miss joe when i'm at school tho. not too much. i don't cry anymore at school- always a good thing. work is good. i need money. i found joe the Perfect b-day present and i need to save for it.
anyone else going to the freedom rally this saturday?!?!
FREE WEED! FREE YOURSELF!
om mani padre hum
p.s. Dave- check your BOX(mail that is)
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yeah so school it ok. the school itself is 1000x better than whittier, plus i have art class all day. ummm going to school with a bunch of kids that live in big houses and whose entire wardrobe is adorned with "abercrombie" is a little nauseating, but it's not entirely unbearable. i think i've just grown out of that highschool bullshit phase (if i ever entered it) because most of the people around me are wicked fake... but I have met a few cool people. not hard to do when i'm in art class all day. and i do miss Joe so much. I would give anything to be able to walk to class with his arm around me and to kiss him in the halls...
Joe and I are both working a ton lately. It's good though I guess. Saving up and stuff. I just want the future to be here now. I want to graduate and go to california with Joe. ...yeah yeah soon enough.
in general. i would say. that life is good. and i am not lacking.
it's strange. i'm comfortable in this awkward skin. i don't care that i am anti-social and i don't care what the hell anyone thinks about me. i am living my life for my self. and i am doing things for my self. and it feels good.
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[27 Aug 2002|02:29pm] |
... yeah like I didn't know that my boobs were perfect already.... i mean, if there is anything I have complete and total confidence in, it's my boobs...tehehe
first day of school today, pretty fun. last night i went to pockets with Dave and Robyn and Joe and I actually played pool not too bad I think. No table scratches anyways :) I had a lot of fun.
got to get ready for work now... I love my job!
I get a 4 day weekend this weekend. woo hoo.
om mani padre hum
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[23 Aug 2002|08:53pm] |
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jest got home from work... so so so much work... working 1-10 tomorrow, 10-10 sunday... monday, maybe sleep and hopefully see Joe... I'm excited about starting school. My sched for first term is drawing & painting, french, photography, sculpture... sweet.
me sleep now.
om mani padre hum
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[20 Aug 2002|11:42am] |
this summer has been going by really fast... i can't believe that this weekend is my last weekend of summer.
i think next year is going to go by fast and I'll be in California before I know it. I've got 2 really great jobs now, I'm going in for orientation on my second one today. I can't believe it took me all damn summer to find a single job and now I have 2, 2 fantastic jobs. Tomorrow I'm going to AHS to schedule my classes... and then go to the dentist... and then to work... fun fun fun.
got to think of something really cool to do this weekend...hmmm....
om mani padre hum
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tuesday mornin...just woke up still smelling like joe and thinking about him. last night he picked me up from my first day of work and brought me a long stemmed rose ... my heart is swells ...
... now not that Joe isn't always the sweetest bestest most awesome guy, but this was the first time he brought me a rose and i'm going to keep it forever it's hanging over my bed right now. i know he's really proud of me for getting a job. i'm really happy about it too.
i had to make up a driver's ed class yesterday and then after that went directly to work for training. i think i'm going to do really well there. i'm working again on wednesday.
these past few days... thurs partied with tim and joe, friday partied with piloski and joe,
saturday... got my bed-finally!!! now I don't have to sleep on the floor anymore. me and joe went to get my bed and then joe assembled it for me and helped me move stuff around in my room... partied with tim too that night and slept over joe's house... sunday, head shop-shoppin with tim and joe and then we were at my house for a while, and well it was a long day of bong rips.
yep and now it's tuesday and i'm pet-sitting the dozen or so animals my mom has because she's camping with the rest of the fam until wednesday. the bird is destroying everything. he chews up every piece of paper. the dog has poop stuck on her but (she's one of those dogs with longhair) and the bunny is crazy. so is the guinnie pig. i haven't seen one of the 2 cats for a few days now. the other will only eat dog food. the dog will only eat cat crunchies or people food. the parakeets won't stop making that noise they make and the jamster... well as for the jamster he's not so bad. if only i could get the dambed parrot under control. i think his beak is stuck in a piece of carot right now.
everyone here is crazy. especially me. i need california.
p.s. dave where are you?!?!?! we have got to chill before the end of summer. if you read this, lemme know when you have some days off in the future!!!
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job interview tomorrow!!!!!!!!
i think i'm going to get this job, i turned in an app yesterday and they called me today and my interview is tomorrow... craftmania. on my aplication i put down that my middle name was "crafty" so I have GOT to get this job.
anyways, it's getting close to school time. i'm sad about having to go back to school. Joe is going to be working while I'm in school though so it won't be so bad. so bad.
awwww... i'm gonna miss all the whittier kids so much.... i miss Dave and Dave and Brandon and everyone allready....
well got to go play some gi-tar.
om mani padre hum
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[02 Aug 2002|12:28pm] |
Which era in time are you?
yeah i did, i really did used to be cool, emphasis on used to be...
nah i was never cool but goddamn i miss the early to mid ninties. even the late ones, 99 kicked ass... those were the days...
i finished drivers ed today!!!!! yay!!!! i have to make up a class in 2 weeks but then I am really done. It sure did suck ass. Tomorrow is Joe and my's one year day thing... a whole fuckin year. tonight i'm making him lamb shanks over couscous and a strawberry shortcake. i hope he likes it. i saw the cutest kitty at the MSPCA yesterday.. a little orange one with dark green eyes, looked kinda like Joe. I wanted to get it so bad. It was only 2 months old and it was tiny. It's $90 though and I do not have that kinda money... well to spend on a cat anyways. I wish I got him though.
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i saw justin who used to be in a band with me earlier this week at the market where he works and before i could say hi he ran and hid from me. well i'm not really sure if he hid, but it seemed like it. that makes six people (that i know of, there's probably more) that know what a truly evil succubus i am. I don't know whether to be proud of this or worried. I'm really just a sweet little girl.
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come to think of it, i've also been recently "asked to leave" from a few places for disturbance of peace, the metheun library and macy's at the mall. but fuck those places anyways, if the librarian hadn't given me shit about what computer i was using to look up books...
Which flock do you follow?
this quiz was made by alanna
yeah it would figure...
om mani padre hum
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[23 Jul 2002|01:07pm] |
Four things you would eat on the last day of your life:
- pomegranate
- apple
- asparagus
- mashed potatoes with turkey gravy
Four CDs from your collection that you will never get tired of:
- wish you were here- pink floyd
- all the blind melon CD's, but esp. soup- blind melon
- portrait of an american family- marilyn manson
- bleach and incesticide- nirvana
Four movies that made you think:
- session 9
- PI
- the basketball diaries
- requiem for a dream
Four celebrities you would fantasize about:
- FUCK CELEBRITIES... here are 3 I admire
- Krist Novesic
- Henry Rollins
- Harry Browne
Four causes that you would donate to if you won the lottery:
- NORML (national organization for reform of marijuana laws)
- MASSCANN (massacusetts cannibus colition
- MAPS (multidisciplinary association for psychedelic studies)
- The Albert Hoffman Association
Four vacations you have taken:
- the white mountains camping expedition w/Joe <3
- camping in patucaway w/ Joe, Jon & Katie
- camping in Joe's backyard
- going to the white mountains again for another mini-vaca soon
Four songs you get stuck in your head frequently:
- the entertainer -scott joplin
- maple leaf ragtime -scott joplin
- pool shark -sublime
- redemtion song -bob marley
Four beverages you drink frequently:
- sobe green tea or black tea
- water
- cherry coke
- juice of any sort
Four TV shows that were on when you were a kid:
- smurfs
- batman & robin (the old skool one)
- you can't say that on television
- hey dude
Four places to go in your city:
- i'll use Groveland instead
- the island
- the rope swing
- the plaza
- under the bridge by the plaza
Four things to do when you're bored:
- paint
- sew
- read
- tv if i'm really really bored
Four things that never fail to cheer you up:
- Joe (yeah everyone saw that coming
- My other friends, Dave, Ash, Jermy...
- a big f'n fatty
- jumpin off the rocks at maudslay
I took the McDonalds test, and guess what I got?
You can take the
McDonalds Product Test by Matio64
here!
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[23 Jul 2002|01:07pm] |
Four things you would eat on the last day of your life:
- pomegranate
- apple
- asparagus
- mashed potatoes with turkey gravy
Four CDs from your collection that you will never get tired of:
- wish you were here- pink floyd
- all the blind melon CD's, but esp. soup- blind melon
- portrait of an american family- marilyn manson
- bleach and incesticide- nirvana
Four movies that made you think:
- session 9
- PI
- the basketball diaries
- requiem for a dream
Four celebrities you would fantasize about:
- FUCK CELEBRITIES... here are 3 I admire
- Krist Novesic
- Henry Rollins
- Harry Browne
Four causes that you would donate to if you won the lottery:
- NORML (national organization for reform of marijuana laws)
- MASSCANN (massacusetts cannibus colition
- MAPS (multidisciplinary association for psychedelic studies)
- The Albert Hoffman Association
Four vacations you have taken:
- the white mountains camping expedition w/Joe <3
- camping in patucaway w/ Joe, Jon & Katie
- camping in Joe's backyard
- going to the white mountains again for another mini-vaca soon
Four songs you get stuck in your head frequently:
- the entertainer -scott joplin
- maple leaf ragtime -scott joplin
- pool shark -sublime
- redemtion song -bob marley
Four beverages you drink frequently:
- sobe green tea or black tea
- water
- cherry coke
- juice of any sort
Four TV shows that were on when you were a kid:
- smurfs
- batman & robin (the old skool one)
- you can't say that on television
- hey dude
Four places to go in your city:
- i'll use Groveland instead
- the island
- the rope swing
- the plaza
- under the bridge by the plaza
Four things to do when you're bored:
- paint
- sew
- read
- tv if i'm really really bored
Four things that never fail to cheer you up:
- Joe (yeah everyone saw that coming
- My other friends, Dave, Ash, Jermy...
- a big f'n fatty
- jumpin off the rocks at maudslay
I took the McDonalds test, and guess what I got?
You can take the
McDonalds Product Test by Matio64
here!
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[18 Jul 2002|01:21pm] |
eep. i cut off my dreads.
i'm happy i cut em off, i cant wait to grow them back though. i miss the lil buggers- no pun intended. anyways i feel kinda dumb now cuz i have the same haircut at about 50 trillion other girls. short in the back with long a little beneath the chin legnth bangs. i need something to separate and define myself.
its too long to be punk- plus i'm not bad ass enough to be punk, and it's not long enough for me not to look wicked out of place bein the kinda hippy chick that i am (not the kind of hippy that doesnt shave, just the kind that always has good grass, knows how to do macrame and frequently is found passed out on a tire swing). not quite normal enough for me to look just cute and normal- but that's a laugh anyways. you can always spot me from a mile away.
anyways i feel weird. i feel that this haircut makes people look at me diferently or identify me differently but fuck them anyways. i know who i am and i guess thats what matters.
eh on second though i think i'm gonna dye it black, orange and yellow and try to make my head look like a tigerlily flower. i think a cute lil flower do will suit me well...
hey i start drivers ed at meth driving school by the loop on monday morning, anyone else?
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i'm pretty much moved into my mom's house now and it's turning out pretty good. i didn't think i'd be able to acess my LJ anymore, but maybe I can now and again.
I've been trying to find a job and I finally signed up for driver's ed yay! I also got a car, well Joe gave me his car. I am the proud owner of an 87 plymouth reliant. hell yeah V6 baby. i love that car but i'm not so good at driving standard trannys yet- i cant do a fucking hill start to save my life, but i'm working on it. at least i have a car. i'm so happy and i can't wait to drive it. joe let me try and drive his truck (also a standard) yesterday and I actually got to practice downshifting and i got to shift all the way to third gear! i can't wait to drive more.
i applied for some damn good jobs and some shitty ones and *hopefully* i'll get hired sometime soon...
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[28 Jun 2002|12:16pm] |
well thats it. i packed up my stuff and Joe is coming over to help me move it to my moms house in lawrence to store it for a while, while i try and find somewhere to live. i'm going to be at my mom's probably until the end of summer, until december at the longest. if anyone wants to talk to me : 978-974-9899 is probably where you can find me or get a number as to where i am. i will not be back in amesbury for a long time- i may return though in december, i found some cheap places in amesbury and i am still planning on going to amesbury high. things got fucked up living here. really fucked up and i'm happy to be leaving although sad it has to be so quickly.
i don't have acess to a computer where i'll be living so this is probably my last entry and i probably won't be on AIM anymore. anyways, i'm going to try to keep up with checking my hotmail every now and then so anyone can try and reach me there
[ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<a mailto:"lucidflower@hotmail.com">') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] well thats it. i packed up my stuff and Joe is coming over to help me move it to my moms house in lawrence to store it for a while, while i try and find somewhere to live. i'm going to be at my mom's probably until the end of summer, until december at the longest. if anyone wants to talk to me : 978-974-9899 is probably where you can find me or get a number as to where i am. i will not be back in amesbury for a long time- i may return though in december, i found some cheap places in amesbury and i am still planning on going to amesbury high. things got fucked up living here. really fucked up and i'm happy to be leaving although sad it has to be so quickly. i don't have acess to a computer where i'll be living so this is probably my last entry and i probably won't be on AIM anymore. anyways, i'm going to try to keep up with checking my hotmail every now and then so anyone can try and reach me there <a mailto:"lucidflower@hotmail.com">lucidflower@hotmail.com</a> ohm mani padre hum *carol* |
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[23 Jun 2002|10:49pm] |
hummmm hummm hummmm... damn bored since i slept in late today i'm going to be up all night. i'm macrame`-ing myself a sweet guitar strap since i've grown bored with making neclaces and bracelets. i've got enough hemp chokers for an army. an army of hemp choker clad hippies anyways.
i'm hoping if i can sell the really cool ones to this guy i know who has a hippy store in cambridge.
if my dream of being a world known glass blower doesn't work out i think i'd want to have a little hippy/head shop of my own... it would be sweet and probably kinda of like dredz, but it would be cheap- damb cheap. cheap as can be. and it would only have stuff made by local folk, nothing mass-produced. yeah and i would sing like joni mitchell too and have long long beautiful dreadlocks. and the house joe built for me is awesome and it looks a little, maybe a lot like the house from swiss family robinson. except it's in the B.C. and by this time weed is more than legal and it is praised and sewn into the earth at an incredible rate where it is used for all the wonderful things it can be used for. and i have some lama's too. and now i'm going to sleep seeings as how i'm allready dreaming... nite nite nite
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[22 Jun 2002|06:13pm] |
i hate it when my boyfriend's friend's call me looking for him. i'm not his goddamn keeper. when people (person rather) call me looking for him, it makes me nervous. i don't know why. but man, it's just not cool.
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